Tuesday, November 25, 2014

Some questions to consider.

Adrian, tell me:

How am I capable of sitting in this chair for this many hours without getting any significant work done? Am I destined to always be this unfocused and distracted? Should I get an Adderall prescription? I took an ADHD test online once and passed with flying colors. I don’t need an Adderall prescription- maybe just a drug dealer and a book about time management.

I do not want to waste my life. Am I wasting my life? I’m not wasting my life.

I want to know what I should be doing. I know what I’m doing. I’m doing it.

Be an angel will ya?  

It's late late late for this late bloomer.

I have failed.

This is a sigh and a vent and a big what the fuck.

In my efforts to stay distracted- to fill the void your ridiculous absence created- I gave my time, energy, and love to others.

I have nothing to show for it.
I am hidden behind wigs and garments.
Photographs and laugh gags.

I'll just keep laying golden eggs I suppose.

People seem to like them.

My neck will eventually make a fine paté.